serenity sets in

I'll try to make this as verbose as possible.

As of 6:15 pm today, I am quite sure that I will, after all, be graduating from Redeemer on May 26th (God willing, as ever). This has been a very real doubt for most of the past semester, eating away at my soul, as I saw seven prior semesters of hard work being brought to naught.

I had a really good talk with the Lord, about whether or not I would graduate, at 3:30 am on Monday morning when I was walking home from Tim Hortons (where I had just written out an essay by hand). I told Him that I felt that I had learned what I was supposed to from the struggles of this semester. I told him that I didn't see what point there was to my failing a course and having to go back to school, but that if that was what He wanted, I would try to reconcile myself to it. Then I left it in His hands as best I could.

But I guess He saw fit to let me pass. Apparently, professors, bless them, don't deduct as many late marks as they claim they will (read: they rarely deduct any), at least, not from students in the second semester of their fourth year.

So, all that I have left to do, course-wise, is one last (overdue) paper. I am really enjoying the process, although my current state of relieved euphoria is making it harder to focus on the work.

A summer of joy is already shining before my bloodshot eyes, dazzling and yet refreshing them with the peaceful delights it might hold.

This summer? I think I may:

• enjoy the bliss of being a university graduate
• stay up late or wake up early or both
• lie in the sun
• daydream and spin unrealistic dream-webs
• enjoy created beauty
• go camping
• and swimming
• and canoeing
• write poetry or maybe my memoirs
• talk to God and listen for an answer
• read lots of the books I've been meaning to
• volunteer
• play with my little brothers
• help my aunt and uncle renovate their new cottage
• hang out with my mother
• visit friends far and near
• be Heather's bridesmaid
• and then Amber's maid of honour
• and a guest at some other weddings
• apply for jobs for the fall
• let my spirit rest

That's just what occurs to me off the top of my head.

Because, to be honest, I really don't know. Isn't that lovely?